It sounds so easy. Why is it so hard?
"You need help. Your anxiety is the worst I've seen it in years."
Slowly, I lowered the phone from my ear. Fight-or-Flight never felt more real. The pressure behind my eyes was increasing. As if the tears couldn't release fast enough. I squeezed my eyes shut and did that thing reserved for broken people. Jaw clenched, open-lipped gritted teeth. Face numbed with hives. Anguish that runs so deep, not even medication can alleviate it.
The trending tiktok audio was playing in my mind: "I want... Listen, look at me. I want to be chill... But God has other plans for me, OK?"
That He does, TikTok. That. He. Does.
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Yah... If those aren't God's "other plans" for me, I don't know what I'm doing here reader. All I know is I'm going to help you. (And maybe even get bloggers-block trying).
I promised that in this blog, I would be completely honest with you. So I'll have you know that I am TERRIBLE at remembering to take my meds. I'll also have you know this is the easiest first step to managing an anxiety disorder.
It's CRAZY! Missing 1 day, JUST 1 DAY, results in overthinking, overreacting, and over-hurting. Whoever said SSRIs build up in your brain chemistry and allow for skip days, please stop saying that. Today's mental breakdown proved otherwise, thank you very much!
So please. Take your meds.
remember you have more than just medicine on your side. You have an all-powerful, all-knowing, all-loving God. And He isn't called the Wonderful Counselor for nothing.
The best part? The Wonderful Counselor has no waiting list. He doesn't charge out-of-pocket or by insurance either. And his direct line is not intercepted by a know-it-all, micro-managing nurse.
This has been my favorite verse lately:
"Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you." - James 4:8 NKJV
We're in this together. God knows I don't have the answers for you, but I can relate, and I most definitely can encourage you and steer you toward the path of healing.
All the Peace,
"For to us a child is born, to us a son is given... And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace." - Isaiah 9:6 NIV